dear god,

 

you're jst giving me a test again. it seems like you're trying to tell me "get used to it!"

am i getting used to the pain or the fucking situation? the answer is "no"....never!!!

i think i could deal with all tests u gave but... why didn't you tired when giving me so often?

i run out of reasons why we shouldn't see each other sometime

you know... i dont believe in the existence of you god....but if i was wrong!!?

it would be great if we were open-hearted and figured out why you're angry me all the time

dont want me to be happy, huh!!? were you in my shoes, you would understand me

in the other hand... if i were you, maybe i would understand why you always did the maze to someone

so would be great if you would let me try someday ~hahaha~

 

regards

janet

 

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dear mr fortune teller,

 

what an expert fortune teller you are!!!

nothing much to say.... you always let me down by telling me the fucking truth

everytime i thought i could win, i'll find myself being a loser

 

thanks

janet

 

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dear all mr mrs and ms perfect,

 

you always judge and hurt me by your stupid measure or your fucking standard

while i tried so hard to be nice and tried my best to be the leading lady in the movie of my own life

but no matter how much i tried....finally you steal my role

now you win!!!

are you happy now?

 

congratulations

janet

 

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dear my memories,

 

i want you to know that i deeply appreciate and thank you so much

no matter how you were.... good or bad

you always remind me what i should do and what i shouldn't

you're like my best friend who gives me an experience

you taught me how to deal with stupid people or the fucking situation i met

promise me that you'll never leave me alone

 

love

janet